This has never stressed me out before, why would it, I mean its a ez, just pick one… strawberry, blue berry or maple…. ( yes I’m at the ihop and I can’t decide what syrup I want to put on my ihop pancakes…) 

Dee.

Are you going to eat that?

Me

No….

She takes my pancakes away and pours strawberry syrup on them, I pull the plate back… I want half… so we share…

Me and dee head home, layed on the couch to watch a movie, she has big breast, soft too I lay on them and she rubs my head I slowly start to pass out, I think this will be the first time in days where I’m about to sleep and not worry about any thing….

I start to dream, it’s her, she’s there she hugs me, she loves me, I remember all the things she would tell me; all the cute things she would do… the phone rings, its reality calling me back, its her, and in seconds every bad thing she said or did to me, flashed in my mind… I wish I was strong enough to throw the phone across the room, but its a brand new black berry curve…

I pick up…

Me.

What’s up babe…

Vee.

Can you come pick up your stuff?

Me

Ok…I still have to pack up yours.

Vee.

Ok… well can you do it soon..

Me…

Yea…

Vee.

Bye.

Me.

I love you…

Vee.

Click!

Dee rubs my back, I’m so glad to have some one next to me to keep me from my self. I get up take a shower, dee wanted one too, she gets in with me, lathers my back and massages me, really scrubbing me down, puts her hand between my cheeks, rubs my brown eye and cups my balls, I get hard right away she starts to jerk me off with her other hand, she turns me around, and gets on her knees, washes the soap off and starts to kiss n lick my shaft, she licks my balls and my taint, she puts her magical tounge on my head and with the most perfect sucking, tounge rubbing and spit, she.gets me to cum… who knows how long I have been backed up for…. a gallon of cum came out I feel her gulping my loads, I’m moaning, and thrusting down her throat, holding her head down… I pull out… and I’m still shooting a tiny bit more… she keeps sucking and I get really dizzy… light headed… I get out not even dry my self off and head for the bed… apart of me made it…

mmmmmmmm…..Ice cream….

“You may be feeling especially lazy today, but hard work and keeping your promises brings the best results. Do your best to finish what you start. If single, reconsider a romantic offer if you are simply feeling lonely. A better choice is spending more time with trusted friends.”

… Friends??? I don’t think i have real friends…

Dee is a friend… Let me tell you about Dee…

Dee is a girl that I met in H.S. she tried biting me once so naturally I did not like her. she was dating this guy that i hung out with at the time, we all hung out one day together late one night in a laundry facility, we sat down and we started talking and some how became the best of friends after wards.

now our relationship is really unique, she is a bigger girl; I normally go for the sexy skinny type, but her personality glows and she is really pretty and sexy in a completely different way…

Dee wakes up, shes hungry, I take her to a diner, we eat… we talk about other things as much as we can.

Dee:   On Fucking Valentines day!!! Did she know it was Valentines day????

Me: Apparently not she actually told me that she would of waited if she would of remembered… she also forgot my birth day 2 days later…

Dee:… wow… happy birthday btw….

Me: Thanks

The check came and I paid… She never has money… Still love her…

We caught a movie, everything reminded me of her, I grabbed Dees arm… way bigger than what I’m used too but it’s not the first time we where intimate… You see… my girl and I had a three some with her… it’s actually wasn’t really a 3 some… Dee does not like to take off her clothes, cuz shes on the over weight side, but she loves giving head; I know this because I have received them from her several times before, she ate out my girl while my girl was giving me head, after making her cum I put my Dick in her face and started to blow me, it took her like 1 minute I pulled away from her mouth and blew my load all over her glasses… I big Load! ahhhh… good times….

after the movie we ended up at my place where we talked about my problem. I explained to her that since I broke up with my girl that i cant get it up… not even morning wood, she asked to see it…

i was sitting there on the couch, she got down on her knees and started to undo my belt, my brain was desperatly trying to send signals down to my dick; wake up i thought to my self. get hard dam it! She undid my button and unzipped my pants I was wearing no underwear, Something i tend to do often; and she pulled my pants down to see it…

she looked hart broken, it was cold and small, she said to me… you’re right, it has no color, she rubbed my legs and told me to relax and that she would get it hard. she pulled back her hair in a pony tail, seems to be the universal language that its on; she got down low so i could look at her, she cupped my balls and gave some amazing warm kisses. all over my balls and small flaccid penis.

she stuck out her tongue, she licked my balls, my dick, making it wet messy and warm, my dick doesn’t even get a chubby. she is an amazing head giver. and she will not stop till there is cum, she pulls back to fore skin to my dick and wrapped her lips around it. she started to play tongue games with my head. her mouth filled with saliva and started to suck, while keeping my balls warm and scratching genitally with her nails..

she get a small rise out of me, she starts to pick up a bit of speed and starts to moan, as i reach the back of her throat, I stay semi hard the rest of the time and gets me to cum. I grab her head and pushed down on it, forcing my dick to to back of her throat. i kinda yell and she sucked harder, i start feeling the cum coming up, from my balls up the shaft and out the head!!!

she swallows every last drop… I sat there happy, hart broken, sad, exhausted, accomplished, tiered, sleepy and hungry…

Why the fuck am i always hungry….

Scared, Cold, lonely, sad, up set… cant stop thinking of her…. crying for about 48 hours now…

Chapter 2

Took a shower…. I smelled really bad…. I think I’m hungry…. I have no money….

Chapter 3

woke up trying to look busy, keep looking at pictures of her… will I ever love again??? She was a bitch!!!, a Cunt! a whore… my whore, my little skank slut… God i want her back…

Chapter 4

Took  another shower today, made a montage, keep thinking of her…

every time break up with a girl I have to listen to boys II men, and baby face… I keep trying to figuring out ways where I can get a group of people together who know how to sing… Maybe if I show her how romantic i can be she will come back to me… who is going to help me sing???

Maybe…. I should fake my death…

I Think I’m hungry….

Chapter 5

When can I see you again…. When can my heart beat again… When does the Pain ever end….When do the tears stop from running over….when does the you’ll get over it begin???

I hear what your saying, but swear its not making sense, and when will i see you again???

I have a bed… i cant sleep in it… I sleep on the couch… I guess its cuz its a tighter space… I think I’m going to try to eat today… Just looked in the Fridge… Our last meal was in there… all crusty and dried up… I think it was making fun of me… I threw it away… I think im going to go for a jog… its to cold out side… I do it tomorrow…

Chapter 6

Oh My Fucken GOD!!!!!! I Think its broken!!!

Chapter 7

Ohhhhh yea….. Totally broken…

Chapter 8

Is this Even possible??? It’s the Morning For god sakes…. Oh My GOD its had no color!!! its like white…. and cold…and…. small…looking???

Chapter 9

I call a friend of mine… I cry and tell her everything… i ask her if she can stay with me…. she said yes and i picked her up… we hung out all night talking and watching movies… I wonder if i can get a Blow Job???